Mania

Manic night tonight. Screaming can't settle kids down...why oh why Dow e live in such chaos. Tired Want to go to bed but can't slow my head from thinking about everyone on my life. I always want to please and help people and some people are just mean and rude. I am so concerned e and frustrated with why things always happen to me. I am wanting to stay positive.

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhh

Forty five minutes of straight screaming and not sure why,  I wish god could come down and hug my little girl when I can't .

Carol is in the hospital because of her blood count and rash from chemo...Brian is still being helpful..I

Love him working half days.  I only
Y hope he continues so his mood is good.